Tuesday, September 30, 2008

In an effort...

This post is just fragmented thought, I could spend the time to develop it more clearly, but I'm a busy boy with work right now always. Another time perhaps. Hopefully you find it worth reading and develop an idea of your own.

In an effort to make this thing real I am posting despite an extremely busy day. Here is something to think about since I just watched the movie The Prestige (which is awesome and if you haven't seen it yet I highly recommend it).

Quote: "Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts. The first part is called "The Pledge". The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course... it probably isn't. The second act is called "The Turn". The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking. You don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn't clap yet. Because making something disappear isn't enough; you have to bring it back. That's why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call "The Prestige"."

This quote uses magic as the subject but it can easily be abstracted as a metaphor for life as a whole (what can't with enough imagination right?). So if what we are doing now (working, living, building) is The Pledge, is our death The Turn, and what we accomplish that exists beyond us The Prestige?

Or perhaps, our work/life/building (whatever you want to call it) is The Pledge, and our death is The Turn, but The Prestige is never occurs, it is the secret we can never realize. (see: "Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking.")

Or more realistically it is a movie that has themes that can be stretched to be what you want, cause most likely the interpretation you create was never intended. But that's rather boring, so I will opt out of that possible answer.

Monday, September 29, 2008

What defines the things that define me? Skimming the surface.

When I decided to start this blog (like 5 minutes ago) I asked myself "do I need to introduce myself to my audience?" And finally came to the conclusion that if you are reading this you probably already know me, or if you keep up with the blog you eventually will get to know me pretty well. (I'd like to pretend that I'm more complex than being able to know me based off a blog, or myspace/facebook/etc for that matter, but maybe I'm not). Then that got me thinking about the things that define me, i.e. how would I have introduced and defined myself? Again I want to pretend that I'm more complex than a set of words that can define me. (Sidenote: What is my obsession with being complex today?) So in a ode to reality and giving up on pretending I want to list some things that helped shape me to who I am. Note: this is not who I am but what has made me who I am.
  • Growing up in Boulder, CO
  • Getting an economics degree
  • Having amazing family and friends
  • Having divorced parents
  • Saves The Day (more accurately music but Saves The Day changed my life in a profound way when I was younger, and led me to many other bands which led me to more bands and so on)
  • Computers and the internet (yup me=1337 d0rk)
  • My father's work ethic
  • My mother's sense of logic
  • Living in a world where anything is possible
After making this list I realized that each one of these could be a blog post so don't be surprised if you find these things recurring in the future. Also, I realized making that list was harder than I had expected as I could have gone on for days. I will leave it at that and perhaps revisit it another day.

The Beginning Of The End

I'm certain that this is the millionth blog I have started. I can't promise that I will keep it going, but I fully intend to. I feel obligated to legitimize this blog (as I have all my others) even though I am questioning whether or not that is what sets these things up for failure. So this time I want to point out why this one will succeed where the others have failed. For one, the scope of this blog is too large to get tied down trying to prove something. I'm not spouting out my economics beliefs (although I will), and I'm certainly not trying to fit into a mold of a scene (catch ya later livejournal RIP sorrowingxstar). This time it is just me, being me, completely honestly. I'm hoping that I can share things on here that I won't even admit to myself. Secondly, I feel like the more I experience, especially within the literary world, I understand that there is a fine line between being a horrible writer and a great one. I am determined not to let my self-consciousness about my writing deter me writing publicly.

After what I perceive is a sufficient legitimization for this experiment, I want to move onto something more important to me for this blog. The content. Thanks for reading the intro, and keep abreast (haha breast) for updates.